are you also so excited for christmas?

i definitely am! i am so looking  forward to the holidays, 

spending long evenings with my family under the christmastree 

and playing silly boardgames 

and just talking about god and the world!

i love christmas markets, the smell of cookies and the branches.

yukkk, i am so excited xd

today, after a long long week of a foggy, rainy sky the weather was finally good again.

and i totally noticed how my mood changed.

i took a long walk in the forest all by myself and

i guess i am fine again.

at least i think so.

 i am totally in love with the new two things i got from my mother!

actually they are from a thrift shop in my village but my mother paid them for me, haha xd

the coat...is just perfection. this is what i was always searching for. it has the coulour of moss and the lining is just so lovely! maaah, i could cuddle myself all the time when i am wearing it :p

and the shorts are lovelylovely, too! 

so thank you parents for your great presents recently! i am really thankful and actually don't know why i deserve this much kindness!

lovelylovely autumn clothes!

this is actually what i was wearing on friday when jacque visited me in the afternoon.

we took a walk in the forest and to the freeway bridge together. 

it was just lovely.

we waved the drivers and after a long time i felt like we were friends again 

with the same connection we had a few years ago.

shoes, shoes, shoes!

shoes are everywhere!

this warm and comfy pair i got from my father 
when i came back from india as a present.

i am really thankful and absolutely adore them!
 and i got a few others secondhand

maybe i will show them in another post!

 

 

 

i am out of pictures lately and that's why you get such crap, i am réally sorry!

as i told you, we watched the movie 'cloud atlas' on sunday and well...it was great, i've to admit. but my expectations were just too high, i guess. but it's definitely worth watching. maybe not one of my favourites but it's great!

naah! and you know what? i am totally in love with overknees recently! and dresses! with dresses, wool tights and overknees! i wear it this way all day and all night 

and i feel really comfortable in it!

but i totally forgot to make pictures!

i guess i will do that today because i have nothing else to do <3

 the first photo was taken when i was watching the sunrise a few days ago!

 the quality is miserable, i know 

but it was such a lovely morning!

the past time just...

i have no word for it...

wait i have to google it! 

noin! i can't find one! 

but anyways it just isn't the best time of my life at the moment. 

i try to ignore everything bad 

if i am honest.

 but i don't seem to be that successful.

yesterday i had the worst hangover of my life. 

i had to vomit and couldn't do anything the whole day.

but, i don't know why,

 it wasn't that bad. because therefore 

the day before had make me forget everything for a few hours.

 even if i have to suffer abit afterwards..

it was worth it i guess.

but i had never ever thought 

that i would think that way about taking drugs anytime.

honestly 

it makes me feel even sadder.

but enough.

my blog should be about the positive aspects of my life

 and here i totally want to forget 

that there are any other.

so finally i have one good thing to tell you about my life right now: 

my relationship to mother 

is after a long period of time 

really really good. 

(i mean she doesn't anything about the drug thing 

or that i skip classes yet, but whatever!) 

but from now on i will try to get my life under control.

 to be the paula again which i was. a long time ago.

excuse me.

the next post will be more interesting and meaningful, 

i promise.

today i was..yeah, i dont know. 

actually i cannot remember anything exciting which could have happend.

i guess i have to dissapoint you! but i can tell you what my plan for the weekend is!
on saturday morning kathi and i are willing to go shopping again and after that i will meet alex and nicole in the city. these two are really good friends of mine and we haven't seen us for a long time so i really see forward to that day! <3 and have i told you, that tommorrow my older brother will also come? aaw, that's so great! finally a light glance in my life again xd

on sunday he, my other brother and my father will go to the cinema and watch the movie 'cloud atlas' and i am so happyyy because this movie should be one of the best films of the year and the trailer is really great! 

hohun, go and watch the trailer, dear friends!

today i wasn't at school

just because of the reason that i didn't felt like it

like 'going to school'

rather i spend my whole day with the ones i love

in this case it were felix and murkel

in the morning, instead of going to school

we just took the train 

and went to berlin! 

and should i tell you something?

it was wonderful, absolutely great.

we had some breakfast, than went to primark, looked at the sky,

just drove around randomly with a double-decker bus for about two hours

in which we had the first three seats

and watched the birds, the honking cars and the hustle and bustle road,

 the fallen, colored autumn leaves

 and made alot, alot of jokes.

about us. about god. about the world. about life. about sense. about us.

'love is such a tiny little thing', i told him.

'indeed', he agreed.

'i guess, i have never felt such thing for somebody.'

 

good night, sleep tight.

 "We stood in the barren landscape,
between iron scraps,
remembering our comrades.
  i softly began to cry.
tears flowing like brooks.
 
He came up beside me,
  a smile in his tears,
fists clenched. 

"Let us not forget
who fought with us,
but let us carry their spirits
on our hearts
as we go into battle."

haha, i guess i am the only person who gets a cold in such a warm country like india! 

but sadly i am still ill and it feels like i am coughing out my lungs

but roses are red and so is my future!

klickidiklickklick

lovely, lovely people

oh how unbelievable was the time in india

which just passed away so quickly

it's allready a week

since i am back

and honestly i was really glad to be back

but the time there was just mind blowing!

this is how i imagine my life to be

dreamy, wonderful, incomprehensibly, lovely, strong and just...

like a fairytale.

everything you can imagine is real.
somewhere.
somehow.

i just want to let you know that i am back!

after three long, exciting weeks i am home again 

and i never was that happy and sad at the same time!

but i will tell you everything and show you pictures later

 now i have to begin studying, doing homework 

and because in only one day

 the school starts for me again and in india we've done nothing at all!

lots and lots of huggggs, dear friends!