Freitag, 28. Februar 2014

my brother is in tokyo right now
as i told you before.
he is going to stay there for three more days
and i think, it looks so cool and i wish could be with him!
(though he is not the guy on the photo!
that's just a friend who is accompanying him, i guess.)

it's always been me and my brother's dream to go to japan
and we even started to learn japanese together for a few weeks 
when i was in the sixth grade
but i gave up pretty quickly and read more mangas instead :p
and now he is the first one to finally make our dream come true!
i am so glad at least one of us did
but then again there is still alot of time left for me to follow him!


Mittwoch, 26. Februar 2014

i've been visiting a painting course
every saturday of a new month for quite some time now
and i finally discovered my passion for paint and brushes again.

it's been some time because the art
we make at school is always so technical 
and full of theory and pressure.
there, it's not about fun and expressing your inner emotions
but about good grades and applied rules.
due to these circumstances i stopped painting privately
because it was already too much to handle in class
but in this course, with all these lovely, lovely people
that never critize your choices on your picture
is just so... fantastic, as the doctor would say.

this sunflower painting was just a sketch for a canvas
that i put aside when it was in the middle of making
just because i felt like it
and it was okay for everyone. 
but most of all it was okay for me.

Dienstag, 25. Februar 2014

carl and rosa picked me up
from the train station on saturday
with the bike and some flags in their hands
of countries they have never heard before. 
when i asked them why they brought them, 
they simply answered
 that this was a gesture of welcome for me.
i wish i'd still be that little
and my only problems would be 
my annoying brother and my tangled hair.
we took a quick tour with the bycicles
 because the weather was so overhelmingly beautiful
but after a while rosa got really tired 
and we had to walk 
and i gave her some bonbons to boost her energy.
it was lovely.

otherwise i spend most of my weekend inside a train
which i don't mind because i love travelling
with music in my ears
and my thoughts in my head.


Sonntag, 23. Februar 2014

i am not entirely sure
if i mentioned it on here before
but i've been searching for a part time job recently
and guess what?
i have an interview tomorrow at my local bakery!
and i am so excited and nervous
though it would be really great working there
since it's right around the corner 
and i desperately need to start safing some money
for my driver's licence and my holidays!

and i also started to give tutoring lessons in english
 for the son of a friend
which brings a few bucks as well.
though it's really not much 
but i enjoy teaching thoroughly, i'd have to admit!

Freitag, 21. Februar 2014

i am bit too happy right now
and that scares me a little
because i know how fast happiness can be taken away from you again.
but otherwise i am enjoying life quite extraordinarily at the moment

i went to movies with my mama yesterday 
and we watched 'monuments men' which was réally good and thpughtful!
tommorrow i am going to my dad's place for one day 
just to see my little siblings again.
and on sunday i will meet up with kathi, alex and nicole
- three really old friend of mine 
and i am so glad we stayed in touch troughout all these years!

and ofcourse, i have a ton of homework to do
and alot of pressure to comprehend
but i think i will be just fine.


Mittwoch, 19. Februar 2014

solange ich atme, hoffe ich.

Sonntag, 16. Februar 2014


my birthday is less than a month away and again
i am so scared to get older
because with becoming so
so much more expectations and obligations come along
that you cannot longer hide from anymore.

but what do they expect from a foolish little girl?


Mittwoch, 12. Februar 2014

"you'll never enjoy your life,
living inside the box
you're so afraid of taking chances,
how you gonna reach the top?

rules and regulations,
forced to play it save 

get rid of all the hesitation,
it's time for you to seize the day.

instead of just sitting around
and lookng down on tomorrow 

you gotta let your feet off the ground,
the time is now."

Montag, 10. Februar 2014

i decided that a for me unusual post would do this blog a bit good
so why not showing you what i am currently reading?
and yes, before you ask
i have the bad habit to read tons of books 
at the same time.
i always do that.
and that's why i need quite abit of time
 to finally finish one.
so if you ever think about borrowing me a book
remember that you won't see it again 
any time soon!
but still, i am huge fan of reading - i always was and always will!

the first book are poems by the lovely lang leav 
and i got it for christmas
it's been following me everywhere since then
 because i just enjoy to read a little poem now and then.

the second one is in german and it's 'atonement' by ian mcewan.
 you've probably heard of it before.
quite intense actually.

then another collection of poems.
 this time by the extraordinary emily dickinson
and i've been a huge fan of her work for quite some time now.
she just kind of has the ability to grasp the deepest thoughts of your heart
 and play with them
 in a way you'd never imagine to be possible.

and last but not least: 'anna karenina' by leo tolstoi.
 a classic
 but i just haven't had the time until now to finally start reading it.
 i am now halfway through and it's utterly interesting,
 suspenseful, sometimes its explaining itself way too much
 but that's the way tolstoi tells his stories
 and i find this kind of topic really thoughtprovoking and interesting
 and you will eventually find me sitting in a corner with this book in my hand
 and a ruminative look on my face.


Sonntag, 9. Februar 2014

some old pictures i found on my phone while searching through it.
almost a whole year has passed since these we're taken
 and it still feels like yesterday.
such lovely sunny days.
spend with only the best people and the best thoughts.
hopefully i will have such times again soon.

on friday i met some new people
because a friend of mine, gina, invited me over to drink a few glasses
and these boys were pretty funny and utterly nice.
it's always a bit hard for me to finally come in contact with fresh faces
 and to get out of my comfort zone 
but then again i am always glad afterwards
when i did it and had a great time.
just thought i'd share that with you!

Donnerstag, 6. Februar 2014

"He is like fire and ice and rage. He is like the night and the storm in the heart of the sun. He is ancient and forever. He burns at the center of the time and he can see the turn of the universe...

                 And he is wonderful."